So I'm moving to Japan.
And at the moment, I'm also scared and stressed out. It's probably a productive of lack of sleep, which I imagine is also brought on by how utterly unprepared I am right now. There's so much to get done before I leave, but I am in this semi-state of denial about how much must get done. And there's the fear of change. My heart wants to go and my brain says it's a great idea and a stellar opportunity.
But I'm scared. I guess that's the best way of putting it. The littlest things these days are stressing me out and making me worry. Some people's greatest fear is death. Mine is being forgotten. It's bad enough that people are crappy at communicating while I'm here. Who's going to forget me when I'm gone? Little things like my best friends forgetting to get back to me and being unreliable are making me scared. I don't really know how to tell people, though, when those people have already identified that they're bad at it. And they apologize. But I say, if you're really sorry and you know you do it, maybe you should try a bit harder to Not Do That in the future.
Maybe it's a character flaw, that I try to be reliable. It seems to me that 99.9% of people who I know are not, though I know that people are caught up with their own lives. But as caught up with my own life as I am, I do try to be there for people. Maybe that's something that I should stop doing, since it's not so often reciprocated.
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